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Needing To Change My Thoughts About My Best Friend

Not even sure where to begin today....................... Just got into a very negative confrontation with the person that is supposed to be my best friend. I just don't think this is going to work out anymore..... This is very unfortunate because I love this man very much but this is just to much on my mental capacity. I think I am very hurt and even angry at him on some level for not feeling the way I feel about him, yet he spends everyday making an effort to talk to me. He tells me he has never had a friend like me and he says he loves me and cares for me very much. Then he says he is not attracted to me. He's actually not attracted to black ladies...........that is.......unless they are mixed with Hispanic or Asian, then that is ok! This of course, hurts me on a very deep level. I know, intellectually that he has the right to feel whom he want to feel is attractive, but unfortunately, it does hurt me and I truly wish it did not. Throughout my entire life, people haev told me that I am very pretty or beautiful. I guess my ego is just having a real tough time with the rejection. I think more so because it has to do with my ethnicity. ......... I know someone is out there for me and that he'll think I am beautiful. I know of a man that says he loves me and wants me to be his wife, but I just don't feel the same way towards him. Isn't that ironic how the universe will do that? I think there is a lesson here. I just don't want to feel unloved. I need to reinforce that I am worthy of love and that I have value, regardless of what Daniel(his name), thinks. I can't let this kind of emotional strain get to me. I actually feel physically sick from this last encounter......................I'll continue with this later..........maybe....just feel physically sick over it :(

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University Of Phoenix

Well,
This is my second week or orientation to the Univeristy of Phoenix. I can't believe that at age 47 I am returning to school. I just turned 47 this past December 2nd and I have to say that I am excited about the prospect of earning an Associates degree of Arts in Psychology. My official classes start on January 2nd, 2012. I'll be taking 2 classes, each for 9 weeks. It will take me 2 years to achieve my Associates. I am really looking forward to this even though it seems a bit overwhelming at times. I think the big thing is that it's been over 20 years since I've been in school and that is good in a way because I feel more focused. I think I will use my time better than I would have or did when I was in High School.
This is an endeavor that I am looking forward to. I have not told a lot of people because I feel that might put undue pressure on myself to do well because then I will feel as if I am being watched to see if I succeed. So for the most part I have kept silent about this new adventure and will be silent until I have at least completed a year of schooling or at least the first 6 months.
I'll keep anyone who is interested up to date on my new adventure that I feel I will be successful at. :)

Still In Love

Well,
I still love a man that does not love me in the sam way............... Do you have any idea how much of a hearbreak this truly is? I keep trying to slip away so I can heal but he won't let me go~! I'd have to hide from him. Should I do this? Does anyone have any advice for me out there? I could really use some sound advice. I keep getting told that I just need to get rid of him but then tht means ending a friendship that is truly important to me. Sigh................what am I do do?...........................